Wow! I have gone through some serious blogger withdrawal, but I'm back now and ready for the new year!
I have had so many changes in the last month and a bit that I need to get everyone updated. I haven't been able to without Internet but the Internet is up and running and I can finally get back to writing.
This summer, I made some stupid mistakes, and trusted the wrong person. This wasn't a stranger, or a someone I just met. Not a boyfriend, or a co-worker. This was a close friend of mine who had been a good friend and supportive throughout our friendship. Unfortunately, I learned the hard way that things are not always how they seem. I ended up in a bad position financially because of this and when I was at the point where I thought I had no where to turn, and didn't know what to do...I called my mom. I explained everything to her and put it all out there. That I had made some really stupid mistakes and now I was in a position I couldn't get myself out of.
My parents came up to see me and asked me to move home. We discussed that the horses could stay there, I could get a job back home and save money and pay off my debts. I made the decision to do that and the next week my horses were home. I had an interview and got hired in the city by my parents home and quite my job, and moved home the following week. So for the last month I have been adjusting to life at my parents farm with my puppy Broo and enjoying having my horses at home. My parents have a beautiful small barn with a bright cover-all and massive pastures with 20 acre turnout. It really is the perfect private stable, and I know my boys are happy to be here.
The other news I have is about Schaeffer. After a rough few months for him I made the decision to have him euthanized. It was not the easiest decision for me but I know it was the right one. He had a great year with me and spent his last few months on a farm, which really is all any dog ever wants. He was buried under the apple tree on my parents farm where a few of our horses have been laid to rest. It was the hardest, and saddest day of my life, but I will never forget everything Schaeffer taught me.
The last few months have really been a roller coaster for me, but I have learnt so much about life, and myself that I can't say I would really take any of it back. I would love to still have Schaef with me, but I know he is having the time of his life raiding food bowls in the big starry sky. You can sit and admit defeat when times get tough, or you can allow your pride to take a hit and do the right thing. Admitting mistake is half the battle. I haven't only admitted mistake, but I have learnt from it, and I will continue to learn and grow as I experience life.
I'm happy to have my computer back on line, and happy to be back reading my favorite blogs.