Frustration. "A common emotional response to opposition. Related to anger and disappointment, it arises from the perceived resistance to the fulfillment of individual will. The greater the obstruction, and the greater the will, the more the frustration is likely to be. Causes of frustration may be internal or external. In people, internal frustration may arise from challenges in fulfilling personal goals and desires, instinctual drives and needs, or dealing with perceived deficiencies, such as a lack of confidence or fear of social situations. Conflict can also be an internal source of frustration; when one has competing goals that interfere with one another, it can create cognitive dissonance. External causes of frustration involve conditions outside an individual, such as a blocked road or a difficult task. While coping with frustration, some individuals may engage in passive–aggressive behaviour, making it difficult to identify the original cause(s) of their frustration, as the responses are indirect."
This is what I feel at this moment. You know that feeling when you are working with a green horse and you take two steps forward, and take one step back? I hatttte that step back. I am taking a few steps back. I decided to go back to square one with William. I thought long and hard about his scootie butt - try to buck move and decided there was a training block missing somewhere. He goes great once he gets going and does not do the scoot nor attempt to buck, but getting on and starting off is always a bit sketchy. I don't like that sketchy. I don't like being the most nervous that I might die at the beginning of the ride. Kind of takes all the joy out of it. And trust me, I am NOT a nervous rider. I just stress a little bit over whether or not I am wrecking a perfectly good baby. Perfectionist some may say. Neurotic, I say.
By chance - or fate you may say, my old John Lyons book - Lyons on Horses appeared the other day. I started reading and realized my thoughts were probably right, that William is missing some key building blocks in his training. He is flinchy, he is insecure, and not trusting. He is a good boy and stands still but I can see nervousness in his eyes. I am taking the steps back and following the John Lyons way. I have been sacking him out for the last week and it's been going pretty well. I can rub him all over with many things; towels, saddle pads, coats, and even giant plastic bags (you know the kind horse blankets come in).
|My western saddle concoction.|
|What IS this thing?!?|
|Alright I will accept this...for now.|
|I stand perfectly by the mounting block now :)|
|Who me? I'm a good boy :)|
Patience, forever! xx